When my colleagues, complained about the A&E rota, I thought it wouldn’t bother me as much. They moaned about how tired they felt etc. I secretly thought I’d be able to weather all of this because of my gift. I can fall asleep anytime, any place.
But now, I feel their pain. Not only am I tired all the time, I’m just out of sync. I was on nights last week, Monday to Thursday. Usually, I’m able to get myself back into day-mode relatively quickly. It’s a week later, and I’m still out of it. I haven’t had a full night’s sleep for 5 days. And I know I need to sort it out sooner rather than later, hold off sleeping too early and not succumb to a few random hours here and there, but I’m just too weak.
And I’m just too tired to do any of the things on my to do list, so I nap, but then I’m up at the early hours of the morning and I can’t sleep. As if I wasn’t already falling behind on my emails. I’m awake when the rest of civilisation is asleep, I’m sat at my screen wondering if 2 o’clock in the morning is a weird time to respond to a work email.
All I can say is, I don’t know how people do this long term. I certainly don’t know how people are doing this and looking after children/household. Any tips on getting me back on track would be highly appreciated.